Being fate

During the past months I consciously started to learn what it means to really accept fate.
Today I took a lesson about what it means to be fate.

Out of the applicants for the leadership-body of AIESEC in Austria I chose one person to accompany me and the rest of the already built team for the next year starting in July, providing this person with a unique and most likely life-changing experience. Probably for the first time in my life I intensely felt what it means to decide upon the future of somebody else.

I was afraid of announcing my decision and telling the ones I didn't take.
In the moment of power I only felt the weight of responsibility for the lives of these people. I only saw the crossroad in their lives and me being the one deciding which way they would have to take.
As hard as it was starting to accept fate for myself - accepting the fact that I will have to take tough decisions about the life and fate of others is harder than I thought.

When will be the time I have to decide upon life or death of the ones I love?
Even if I wish decisions like that will never be necessary to make, I have to prepare myself for them.
What more important is there about leadership than being able to take the toughest decisions while keeping your heart, your mind and your sanity?