Tribute
Although I learn a lot about myself, develop skills and discover other sides of my personality since I'm in AIESEC, over the last couple of months I increasingly have the terrifying feeling that I'm more and more losing wit and ingenuity. My thoughts seem be less and less outstanding, my ideas less and less brilliant and my communication with other people losing more and more the esprit and depth it had 2 years ago.
I'm not quite sure about the reasons for that development and if it is something temporary or a dangerous development. Some of the possible reasons I could identify right now are:
- I don't anymore take time to read complex (philosophical) texts and books
- I don't really take time to think through and write down own complex ideas (like e.g. when I tried to develop processes and systems to permeate and change society on a multi-level basis)
- I don't anymore try to start discussions out of sporty passion for discussing and I don't try to win discussions just for fun
- I cut down all my other activities (that have always been very diverse) which lead to a loss of a lot of different sources for different world-views, mental challenges and new ideas
- I don't sleep as much as I did before and sometimes find myself in a terribly tired state during the days
- Although some parts of my AIESEC activities need a higher level of thinking most of them relies on skills and not on wit and ingenuity right now
My tribute.
Need to change it.
I'm not quite sure about the reasons for that development and if it is something temporary or a dangerous development. Some of the possible reasons I could identify right now are:
- I don't anymore take time to read complex (philosophical) texts and books
- I don't really take time to think through and write down own complex ideas (like e.g. when I tried to develop processes and systems to permeate and change society on a multi-level basis)
- I don't anymore try to start discussions out of sporty passion for discussing and I don't try to win discussions just for fun
- I cut down all my other activities (that have always been very diverse) which lead to a loss of a lot of different sources for different world-views, mental challenges and new ideas
- I don't sleep as much as I did before and sometimes find myself in a terribly tired state during the days
- Although some parts of my AIESEC activities need a higher level of thinking most of them relies on skills and not on wit and ingenuity right now
My tribute.
Need to change it.
5 Comments:
Honestly? I have noticed that you got softer. I mean, even in discussions, you admit that i am right!! That is scary! I mean usually it took some time(if at all)that you said that maybe, at some point i am right... but now... you got softer. Do i like it? I do not know...it is new..
i dont see it as something dangerous. happens after sometime to almost everyone. its natural.
i think you need time to reflect. take a step back, regroup, restructure, and fly high again.
seems like you are in a search for new challenge/s. and try to avoid cutting other activities. they bring energy from the diverse experiences.
i always feel in a lack of sleep or lack of energy when i am "bored" or without a challenge or from monotony life, without something to strive for.
I dont know you but I know exactly how you feel! Man, ths is sooo strange!
Just make sure you keep some friends outside of AIESEC! This is very important!
Hi dear. Well, after having a short discussion on similar topics, I know how you feel and no suprise that most @ers know it as well...
Of course it is hard and you have so much to do... But you will always have! So, just take your time! At least for an hour a day - to sit outside, talk with friends on total random themes, do random things, do things you love, walk, breath deep ;)
Hug to you, S.
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